Listless:
adjective (of a person or their manner) lacking energy or enthusiasm.
e.g. “bouts of listless depression”
synonyms: lethargic, enervated, lackadaisical, spiritless, unenergetic, lifeless, vigourless, lacking energy, limp, effete
So… I’m particularly terrible at updating, it seems. Perhaps the prospect of writing 50,000 words next month was enough to make me consider conserving my words for them. Or maybe not. Maybe I just haven’t been doing a lot of reading or writing or anything resembling either. Maybe I have fallen into the listlessness of being alone in the house until 4 o clock every day. That sounds much more on the mark, to be perfectly honest.
Yet again I have been falling into the familiar trap of starting lots of little things but not actually finishing much. I have started applying for all manner of jobs (from administration stuff to digital marketing), started watching Netflix shows (Archer and How To Get Away With Murder, so good for such different reasons), wrote long overdue reviews for Harry’s Last Stand and The Rest of Us Just Live Here, set up a Pinterest board for my NaNoWriMo idea (though “idea” seems much too hopeful of a word for that vague concept), saw a film that quickly made me obsessed (Crimson Peak, no one is surprised to hear this), and started a few books (The Watchmaker of Filigree Street and The Name of the Wind, both excellent). However, I haven’t finished any of these things – except from watching Crimson Peak, but I wish I could just watch it on loop for the next month or so to be honest! Instead, I have half-assed everything and I really need to follow the wisdom of Ron Swanson on this one:
See, Ron-fucking-Swanson at his motivational best. (It also reminds me of how much I miss Parks and Recreation, season 5 needs to hurry up and air in the UK.)
There is certainly something to be said about finishing – about being able to tick off a completed item on a to-do list. Although I am very good at writing out to-do lists, as of the past week or so, I seem to be very inept at actually completing them. Considering NaNoWriMo is just around the corner I definitely need to get back on track with consistently completing what I set out to do for the day instead of listlessly pushing it back to tomorrow as I seem to have done all of this week. I’ve been in an odd mood in that way and I just hope NaNo will help me to discipline myself better on a day-to-day basis because something’s got to give!
The Terror of Knowing 